In The Middle

Have you ever wondered where your place was in life? Whether it was at home, work, with friends or just with your self. Sometimes I feel like I just don't know if I'm moving forward or backwards. Lately I feel like I'm "stuck" in the middle. I'm not "old" but I'm not "young", I'm not married but I'm not single. I'm not thin but I really don't feel "fat". I'm in the MIDDLE!

So I have been thinking a lot lately of how to feel different. When it comes to my age, most people just say "give me a break, I would love to be almost 30 again" but that's only because they are in their 40's and 50's. To me it means "oh crap" I'm going to be 30! Starting now I just have to prepare myself and say turning 30 isn't the end of the world. It will be hard to believe but I'll manage.

The whole married vs. single problem I don't think will ever change, at least not by my doing. Friends who are married seem to never have time for their single friends anymore, or that is at least what I have come to realize. Just because you are married and have kids your life is suddenly sooo busy. I don't get it but of course I wouldn't because I am technically still single.

Then it comes to being thin instead of being fat. And to change this I think I might join Weight Watchers yet again to help me on my journey. SO far with out the help of a "program" I have lost approximately 7.5 pounds on my own. Not as much as I would of liked by this point but excellent considering the weight has stayed off. So some might say why Weight Watchers, I actually questioned myself too. It is so expensive and you really need to be dedicated to the program to be successful. How many times can one girl join Weight Watchers in a life time? I might be setting a world record if I try again, but what the hell, why would I stop now? I think WW keeps coming up for two reasons, one, because I heard there is a HUGE secret and in about a week they are introducing a new program with new techniques. (I like the idea of something new!) and two, about six years ago I attended a meeting after work every Wednesday, the leader was awesome, the group was great and I lost weight at every meeting and never missed a single one. At the same time my job offered a class that I needed to take and it happened to be Wednesday night, the same time as WW. So somehow my weight loss of 23 pounds disappeared and I grew heavier and heavier each year. I think if i continued on my weight loss journey at that time I would of been VERY successful. Since that time I have never found a leader quite like the one I used to go to, of course because all people are different and no one will be exactly like her.

The Solution:

The week after Thanksgiving I am going to walk into a Weight Watchers meeting for the umpteenth time and re register and start over. I am a clean slate wanting to learn all. Yet I still have one dilemma, I need to set myself up for success and have nothing get in the way of this journey. So here it is... both meeting locations near me are centers which most people would enjoy but I hate it. The centers are open daily with a billion meetings to chose from, different leaders to chose from and the excuse of "I can't make it to my meeting tonight so I will go tomorrow". For me all of these are problems. So I have narrowed down the locations and the meetings to a more bearable choice. I will attend the center in South Windsor, but I am not sure if I should attend the Sunday morning meeting at 9:30am or the Tuesday evening meeting at 6pm. I thought I would prefer the Tuesday night meeting but I have been weighing myself in the morning since July and I would like to keep that consistent to get a true idea of my weight. But I also like Sunday morning, a great way to start the week. Except when talking to some people they mentioned that this might be difficult because of Friday and Saturday. Any thoughts or suggestions?

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone! I will keep you posted on my future decisions :)